Maintaining

I Guess Medical Updates Are Getting Boring
(And honestly, I hope they stay that way.)

Now that chemo has wrapped up and we’ve shifted into maintenance mode, the updates won’t be as dramatic — and that’s just fine with me. I’m now on a once-a-month visit schedule with my oncologist, mainly to keep an eye on my PSA levels. Right now, they’re holding steady at 0.12, which is extremely good.

I’ll keep taking my $500 worth of pills every day and get my quarterly testosterone-blocking shot to help keep things in check. If those PSA numbers start climbing again, chemo could come back into play. Hopefully not — but if it’s needed, I’ll do what has to be done.

It’s a strange space I’m in now — this “maintenance phase.”
Yes, I still have cancer.
No, it’s not gone.
But it’s controlled — and that’s something.

Still, I don’t know what this road will look like going forward. That part’s scary. I’m sure I’ll get used to it eventually... but I’m not there yet.

Foot & Leg Update:
I’ve started the path to figure out what’s going on with my feet. I paid the $80 referral fee (don’t get me started), and I’ve got an appointment with the foot doctor on Wednesday. Hopefully we get some answers.

I personally think the foot issue is contributing to the weakness in my legs. Walking’s a struggle, and this whole thing is starting to impact what I can and can’t do physically — which means I’m seriously rethinking my path forward when it comes to work.
For now, I’ll just take it one step at a time and adjust as I go.

Smoking:
Yeah… bombed.
I made it about 48 hours, and then the cravings hit hard — right on schedule. That 48–72 hour window is brutal. But I’m not giving up. I still want to quit, and failure doesn’t mean I’m done trying. Not yet.

Food & Diet:
I had a bowl of ice cream the other night, and someone pointed out that sugar isn’t great for cancer. He wasn’t wrong — but I told him after four months of barely tasting anything, I was going to eat whatever the hell I wanted for a few weeks.

Let me catch up on the good stuff I’ve missed — then I’ll take a look at cleaning things up. Priorities.

I’m not sure how I feel about this phase yet.
It’s weird. It’s quiet.
And I don’t quite trust it.

But it’s what I’ve got — and I’m going to try to make the most of it.

Waiting to see how I adjust,
A Simple Man